Confession

Song in my head right now:Making Love(Out of Nothing At All) By Air Supply Thanks Carrie!
Okay so I admit-I like American Idol. I know, I know, it's such a normal thing to like. Gosh, I guess I'm slipping LoL! The guy I was rooting for got voted off though. Man am I upset about that! I liked Anthony Fedorov. Gosh, is he dreamy or what? *SIGH !!*

I really like getting email from my friends! I also like getting voicemails from my freinds too. Basically I just like to hear from my friends and communicate with them.

Where, Oh Where Has My Smile Gone?

I seem to be missing my smile lately. I wonder if there is anyone who can help me find it.

Why do bad things keep happening to me? I mean really! Who exactly did I piss off royally to have all of this bad stuff happen? Here's what happend just today: Woke up this morning at 6:30 a.m. ,packed everything I own in the pastor's car, drove up to CP only to be told I'm not welcome at all, drive back home to hear Sheila say we can't move back in with her at all, unload the pastor's car and put everything back in my car which still isn't running, and then walk to the library. Hey, at least it's not raining or snowing! So now I no longer have a job at Burger King, presumably, and even if I was somehow able to keep the job there I would have no transportation to and from work, and now I have nowhere to stay. I can sleep in my car for a little while but not for the longterm. Everyone I talk to is either unable to help or unwilling to help. Everyone keeps telling me to go to a homeless shelter. Yeah like that's the answer! If I went to a homeless shelter I would be trapped there with no car. I would be starting my life all over again for like, the fifth time in the last 4 years. How in the hell am I supposed to thrive when no good things happen to me? I mean one good thing happened to me. I talked to a really nice guy on the phone last week and I hope I made a new friend. Okay, so I do hope it turns into a really nice relationship that will last.That is my only ray of sunshine for this week. Right now I need several really good things to happen to me just to make up for all of the bad things that have happened to me!!!! Can't my prince come and rescue me? Right now I'm doubting that he exists. Something tells me that I will have to find my own way out of this situation without much help from anyone at all. That's how it usually is anyway. I said it before and I'll say it again: NOBODY CARES!! Or if they do care NOBODY CARES ENOUGH TO HELP!